Monday, August 24, 2009

I've let myself go...

I'm not sure how or when, but I've let myself go.. I stopped doing my hair when I wasn't going out (big time-saver).. I stopped getting pedicures a LONG time ago... like um, November of 2007! yeah, and for a girl who used to get them every 2 weeks, that's a big deal! I have even stopped painting my toe nails at home! I stopped working out. I even stopped applying lotion. I stopped thinking I was important.

And of course I started feeling really crappy about myself. I now weigh about 20 pounds more than I did a year ago... No, it's not because I had a baby.. because I had lost that weight.. But since being back in Texas, I just let it all go. Not on purpose... I didn't even realize it, honestly...

I guess maybe it's part of being a mommy. You get to thinking that dressing your little girl is more important than you getting dressed.. You start thinking that any extra minute you spend on yourself is a minute you could have spent doing something else. You struggle to go to the bathroom on your own or to write a blog without being bothered, so why try to spend 30 minutes or an hour to work out?

I'll tell you why. Because if you don't, you lose yourself.. If you lose yourself, your 18 month old daughter will lose her mommy..

So you gotta pick yourself up and find yourself again.. and if that means spending a couple of minutes to put some firming lotion on your stretch-marked belly each morning, or spend an extra 10 minutes or so to do your hair, or put in that work-out video and have your little girl work out with you, then you need to do it! You have to. If you don't, no one else will.

6 comments:

leaner said...

After Rhayn was born, I totally lost myself. I donned "mommy clothes" even though I was 24, and stopped doing anything that made me feel good about myself. I was mommy, and that was all. It took me a long time to find myself again. I was never one to work out, or really fix my hair (I kept it short/shaved for ease before kids.) But have found that these things really help me feel better about myself and therefore I can be a better mom.

But the best one I have found? Get dressed in the morning and put on sexy underwear and not just your ole granny panties. Nothing makes me feel like a hot mama more than a nice set of lingerie. (It helps in other ways, too.)

He & Me + 3 said...

I hear ya. I blog for that reason. An outlet. A way to be me & not just mom. I totally agree.

Stephanie said...

I am just like you...wow that post hit home!

I take care of myself last...all the time! I feel guilty if I put myself first....so hard!

You start making time for yourself though :) You're important!

Caidens_mommy said...

I have recently found myself wondering if I'll ever get back to doing those things now that Noah is here or if I'll just continue to slip further and further into this frumpy housewife slump. As much as I love me as Mommy I do miss the old me......the cute me. Maybe I'm too old and too far gone but you are still young and cute, there is hope for you! Hey we should go get pedicures together, the guys can keep the kids and we can go relax and get pampered!

McCrakensx4 said...

Great post...I totally agree! Yesterday I spent most of the day reading for pleasure...and I loved it! I still get my pedis every month or so...You have to be you to be a good mom!

Alicia said...

Oh, so very true!!!!!!!!!!!