I'm not sure how or when, but I've let myself go.. I stopped doing my hair when I wasn't going out (big time-saver).. I stopped getting pedicures a LONG time ago... like um, November of 2007! yeah, and for a girl who used to get them every 2 weeks, that's a big deal! I have even stopped painting my toe nails at home! I stopped working out. I even stopped applying lotion. I stopped thinking I was important.
And of course I started feeling really crappy about myself. I now weigh about 20 pounds more than I did a year ago... No, it's not because I had a baby.. because I had lost that weight.. But since being back in Texas, I just let it all go. Not on purpose... I didn't even realize it, honestly...
I guess maybe it's part of being a mommy. You get to thinking that dressing your little girl is more important than you getting dressed.. You start thinking that any extra minute you spend on yourself is a minute you could have spent doing something else. You struggle to go to the bathroom on your own or to write a blog without being bothered, so why try to spend 30 minutes or an hour to work out?
I'll tell you why. Because if you don't, you lose yourself.. If you lose yourself, your 18 month old daughter will lose her mommy..
So you gotta pick yourself up and find yourself again.. and if that means spending a couple of minutes to put some firming lotion on your stretch-marked belly each morning, or spend an extra 10 minutes or so to do your hair, or put in that work-out video and have your little girl work out with you, then you need to do it! You have to. If you don't, no one else will.