I don't care about anything.. I'm so frustrated.. so upset... so blah... so tired of everything.. I'm sick of being sick. I'm tired of being tired...
I'm still sick.. no, the antibiotics didn't work magically over night.. but I didn't expect them to. My throat hurts like crazy. My ears hurt. I keep coughing. Not fun at all.
Leala is not listening to me at all today. Normally, she is a great girl who knows what "No" means and will sometimes test you by looking at you while she attempts to do what you said 'no' to.. She knows when she's doing something bad, and after at most 2 times of saying 'no' to her, she moves on. Not today.. so right now, she's sitting in her crib entertaining herself because she wouldn't leave things alone, and right now she's not allowed to have toys.. lol.. I know, a little extreme for a less than 1 year old, but oh well.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just blah... (And no, this isn't the type of blog where I need everyone to comment and tell me that it's part of motherhood.. or postpartum depression or anything like that... not today guys). This is me being in a bad mood.. a helpless mood.. a very unhappy mood..
Kevin has tried many times throughout the day to try to make things better... but nope.. before he can try for 3 seconds, something interrupts us... like his parents needing something... his parents' friend needing something... someone calling about the thread we have on craigslist... or someone actually coming to buy some of the thread... ugh.. I didn't get to eat a real lunch.. We attempted dinner, and that got messed up, so we're trying again later. So, I guess he gave up trying to make me feel better..
Ugh, I'm just depressed I guess... I don't know.. And it doesn't help that my support team is MIA.. I've talked to both people (yes, my support team consists of mainly 2 people - other than Kevin) and neither have even noticed anything wrong... It's my fault for not telling them, but oh well.. I'm blah right now and feel like I don't need to..
I'm sorry this is a bad post.. I don't know what else to write.. I'm not motivated to do much of anything right now.. so yeah.. Maybe tomorrow this will be better.