Friday, January 16, 2009

Just one of those days...

I don't care about anything.. I'm so frustrated.. so upset... so blah... so tired of everything.. I'm sick of being sick. I'm tired of being tired...

I'm still sick.. no, the antibiotics didn't work magically over night.. but I didn't expect them to. My throat hurts like crazy. My ears hurt. I keep coughing. Not fun at all.

Leala is not listening to me at all today. Normally, she is a great girl who knows what "No" means and will sometimes test you by looking at you while she attempts to do what you said 'no' to.. She knows when she's doing something bad, and after at most 2 times of saying 'no' to her, she moves on. Not today.. so right now, she's sitting in her crib entertaining herself because she wouldn't leave things alone, and right now she's not allowed to have toys.. lol.. I know, a little extreme for a less than 1 year old, but oh well.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just blah... (And no, this isn't the type of blog where I need everyone to comment and tell me that it's part of motherhood.. or postpartum depression or anything like that... not today guys). This is me being in a bad mood.. a helpless mood.. a very unhappy mood..

Kevin has tried many times throughout the day to try to make things better... but nope.. before he can try for 3 seconds, something interrupts us... like his parents needing something... his parents' friend needing something... someone calling about the thread we have on craigslist... or someone actually coming to buy some of the thread... ugh.. I didn't get to eat a real lunch.. We attempted dinner, and that got messed up, so we're trying again later. So, I guess he gave up trying to make me feel better..

Ugh, I'm just depressed I guess... I don't know.. And it doesn't help that my support team is MIA.. I've talked to both people (yes, my support team consists of mainly 2 people - other than Kevin) and neither have even noticed anything wrong... It's my fault for not telling them, but oh well.. I'm blah right now and feel like I don't need to..

I'm sorry this is a bad post.. I don't know what else to write.. I'm not motivated to do much of anything right now.. so yeah.. Maybe tomorrow this will be better.

10 comments:

He And Me + 3 said...

Awww Ashley,

I am so sorry to hear that you are having a bum day. I hate days like that when you really don't know why you are in a funk but you can't seem to shake it. i have been there and those days are no fun. Everything seems to multiply on the bad side too. I understand, and it is ok...tomorrow will be a better day! I know it will.
I will say a little prayer for you tonight!
((hugs))
Mimi

McCrakensx4 said...

Been there, felt that! I won't tell you anything you don't want to hear except it can only get better...right?! Just know that we are all thinking and praying for you.
~Stacey

Shoebee said...

I understand...sometimes after feeling sick forever I get depressed too. Sending hugs. You need anything your bloggy friends are here, even to hear vents. :)

Stephanie said...

Well I won't tell you all the stuff you don't want to hear but I'm here if you want to talk or vent or whatever. You know my email! Feel better girl. I'm sending hugs your way!!!!

Ms Crazy Princess said...

Aww I really hope things get better for you. It is rough being in a bad mood with the kid, I know, believe me.. I get like that. In fact, I'm having a day like that today. Just don't feel that you're alone, because you're not, okay? Once you start feeling better, things will start looking up again.

I'll be your support team??? ;)

Jennifer said...

I'm sorry I am a bad friend!!! What can I do to help? I have noticed that you are not yourself, but I was just assuming it has been because you have been sick so much lately. I always get depressed when I am sick too. You know that I will always be here for you no matter what. . and if there is something you need to talk about CALL ME. It doesn't matter what time it is or what I am busy doing. . if you say "hey I am sorry to interrupt you but I need to talk" then I will ALWAYS drop what I am doing to be there for you! Just let me know it is important!! If for some reason I don't answer my phone leave me a message or keep calling. . sometimes I don't have service or just don't hear it ring. . so keep at it.

I think you just need to focus on getting well, and then as soon as you are you need to plan a family day. Something that you can all 3 go do that is enjoyable and stress free. You need to get out of the house and knock the stink off. If you have a warm day go take a walk in the park, have a nice lunch, go to a museum, find a kids museum or that sort of thing, that sort of thing. .just do something out of the ordinary. Make Kevin take a day off. He can. I will make him. lol.

But I love you, call me if you need me!

Caidens_mommy said...

Love you Honey ((hugs))

in time out said...

please don't be sorry. we moms need to be kinder to ourselves, and wow, i could have just as easily written what you wrote. bad days happen and I love that you and i are not alone. and depression hurts, it is real and i have written some really depressing things and should probably write more often. so we don't feel so alone. i hope you get to feeling better. and my advice. punch the next person who tells you to cheer up. you will at least smile at the thought of punching them. okay....so cheer up...jk

The Future Mrs. Praslicka said...

Hey Girl,

Sorry things have been bad and you aren't feeling well. I really hope the antibotic kick in soon! I have a question you know the kind that says yeah she doesnt have kids! When you are on antibotic's can you breast feed? I was just wondering. Well get well!!

Daphine said...

I am so sorry that you had such a bad day! Honestly? I think many of us are feeling a bit depressed to a degree here lately. I have way too much going on in life right now and certain circumstances in my extended with family makes things even worse for me. I will keep you in my prayers friend. Take care!